Monday, September 26, 2005

Lyrics run though my head
They make me think about you
They make me so upset
Why is it this you do
You broke me down
You hurt me so much
Your words killed my soul
Your looks destroyed a bunch
I want this to end
I want the memory gone
Your spirit just wont leave
Like a never ending song
If you wont leave me
I will force you away
This is my life
You have nothing to say
You’re pushing me to the edge
Get out of my freakin’ head
I’ve reached my last resort
You cant change what you said
I need some one to save me
And I cant do anything
I cant change the past
So here it is
Im pushing everything aside
This is what you’ve done to me
~My Musical Suicide~

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

You only hold me up like thisCause you don't know who I really amSometimes I just want to know what it's like to be youWe're making out inside crashed carsWe're sleeping through all our memoriesI used to waste my time dreaming of being alive (now I only waste it dreaming of you)Turn off the lights and turn off the shynessCause all of our moves make up for the silenceAnd oh, the way your makeup stains my pillowcaseLike I'll never be the sameYou only hold me up like thisCause you don't know who I really amI used to waste my time onWaste my time onWaste my time dreaming of being alive (now I only waste it dreaming of you)Turn off the lights and turn off the shynessCause all of our moves make up for the silenceAnd oh, the way your makeup stains my pillowcaseLike I'll never be the sameI've got headaches and bad luck but they couldn't touch you, noI've got headaches and bad luck but they couldn't touch you, noI'm not tryingYou only hold me up like thisTurn off the lights and turn off the shynessCause all of our moves make up for the silenceAnd oh, the way your makeup stainsLike I'll never be the same

Monday, September 05, 2005

so yeah,
im just sittin in my room feelin like crap cuz sickness sucks. i think its cuz its a different place, different people, and i try to get attention for a guy who i have this feeling could care less. oh well i guess my life will have to go on.
i wish i had someone to take care of me but i got no one!!
i missed my lesson tonite, cuz i felt like crap and didn't wanna waste the profs time. i wanna get a tattoo....anyone wanna come with me and maybe pay for it for me.....like a college gift!! oh well.

Sunday, September 04, 2005

hey everyone, hows it going? im okay. i could use some more sleep but i have to much stuff to do. umm....about me should be this blog so here it is

my name is Ashley Fischer
i'm currently a student at Luther
i live in Olson
i'm from Wartburg town(waverly)
i'm an only child
i suffer from depression(had help, didn't work and over came it myself)(but it still comes back)
my parents do get along with me
i have a dog at home
i drive a buick LeSabre
i am currently single(but there is a guy that i really like but i think he doesn't like me at all)
i hate thunderstorms
i love to bowl
i work at marty's
my favorite colors at purple and black and red
i like to be different but im really shy
i love computers!!

i cant really think of anything else so if u wanna know more just send me a comment

www.myspace.com/musicalsuicide
www.immortalangel.deviantart.com

these are two websites about me if u wanna know more. other wise im on AIM, YAHOO and MSN so yeah!!!